Big Changes

No pictures on this post today, just thought I would update on some big changes around the Ludlow household. It was a very difficult decision for me but I have decided to leave my current job in Labor and Delivery and instead work in Day Surgery at another hospital. I have been working nights since we moved here and I just felt it was taking away from so much time as a family. I would work all night, from 7pm to 7am and then come home to the kids, give Scott a kiss on my walk into the house and his walk out of the house and crash in bed. The kids, bless their hearts, didn't understand mommy wasn't sleeping at night so they would be up at 11am, so I was only getting like 3 hours of sleep after working 12hours. Needless to say, after 8 weeks of doing this, I'm exhausted. I feel like it's making me a horrible wife and mom, which I know it's not my fault, but I still feel guilty if I'm not my most patient with the kids. Scott hated me working nights as well. Before I started working nights, we were loving it here in Memphis, since starting work we have just been going through the motions and really feeling us growing apart. I was crying from missing Scott and the kids all the time and I couldn't sleep even on my nights off from the stress of really not liking my job. I decided to be proactive about it and apply to jobs. Memphis is alot different than the Dallas area in their number of hospitals. Dallas has so many hospitals to work for, Memphis really only has like three. I applied to all three big hospitals in any and every area just trying to get a job on days. I had a couple of interviews but nothing went anywhere since my experience is in Labor and Delivery. One particularly frustrating day I went onto Yahoo Jobs and posted my resume, the next day I got a call from a small hospital here in Memphis that I haven't even heard of. She found my resume online and asked for me to come in for an interview. The job is in Surgery and the shift is 5 days a week from 645am-315pm, perfect for all of us because Scott is at his residency and the kids are at school until 330pm and then they have the option of extended care until 630pm. This job you are not required to work weekends or holidays. I wanted it so bad, I felt like their was reason she contacted me. I prayed and prayed I would get the job, Scott did too.

Well I found out on Monday I got the job!! It was such a relief to Scott and I, the kids are so happy about it too. So tonight as I write this I am working my last shift in Labor and Delivery for at least the next 2 years. This is very hard for me because I LOVE labor and delivery, it truly is what I am passionate about in nursing. It never gets old to see a family welcome their little miracle into the world and being a part of that special time with them, but I know what our family needs and I need to be home when the kids and Scott are home. I know when Scott is done and we settle more in our lives I will go back to it because it is what I love, I am just so grateful that God heard my prayers and answered them for my family and me and helped me to get this job where I will get to be home with my family more. So only a couple more hours left in my job and then it is the beginning of a new adventure! Wish us luck!

Sometimes, I really don't know what we got ourselves into...

So, a couple of weeks ago I was putting laundry away when I started hearing some banging outside, I looked out our big picture window at the front of the house and there were 4 unmarked police cars with police officers and their big ole rifles banging on the side of our neighbors house. Our kids were back in the den and I told them to stay in there and I set our alarm. The cops were wandering all over the front lawn and looking in windows. Scott got home and he was standing in our front lawn like a crazyhead trying to figure out what they were doing. I yelled at him to get inside. Anyway, they were there for like 3 hours and we found out from our other neighbor that it was a drug bust. I guess they cut open all the couches and everything trying to find drugs. I was on the phone with my sister NJ as it was unraveling and I said, "Scott has meant them and he thought they were really nice." Nj yelled, "That doesn't count, Scott thinks everyone is nice!!" Which is very true....Anyway here our some of he pics I tried to sneak of the cop cars. I didn;t know if I could get in trouble for that, so I had to hide to get them :)

Here is our new adorable nephew Luke!!! He was so snuggly and sweet, i just love him!! Leah and Jackson were pretty sweet with him too.

So alert for 2 weeks old!!

Jackson said in the car last night out of nowhere, "I just wish Baby Luke would never grow up, he's just the cutest baby!" He is such a sweet boy.

Snuggling with his Aunt Lauren. I have SERIOUS baby fever!!! Hopefully we won't have to wait too much longer to have another one!!!

The kids playing in the new sprinkler mat that Grandma Ludlow got them. It's about all we can do outside right now with this awful summer heat!!